Lately my life feels like a giant jigsaw puzzle and I’m finding it hard to fit the pieces together. Have you ever felt that way?
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining but if I were the only thing I would be whining about is the fact that there is no time to do all the things I have on the go. For example, I had my garage drywalled a few weeks ago and bought the paint but I’ve been unable to get out and do it because it’s either been too cold or raining. I finally got out in the garden and bagged 13 bags of leaves that I didn’t manage to get to before the snow came last year only to discover that my lawn has not only been taken over by some nasty critter but that every weed on the planet has moved in. HELP I cried – Lawn Maintenance “sorry call in a weed guy”. Weed guy “sorry too many weeds, you need to seed and pray“. I’m sticking to succulents from here on in. I’m not even trying to be a gardener but when the people you try to hire don’t even want to take your money – like ‘SERIOUSLY’.
Completed two sweaters that now need to be blocked, I have no time to do it so I’ve gone to our local wool shop three times to ask if they could do it only to find classes in session or a CLOSED sign on the door. WHAT, well we do live in snow country after all.
I need someone to paint the house and after getting a recommendation, he was a no show not once but twice.
Need flooring done, first the reno guy didn’t call back and then the fellow from the flooring store never showed up to measure.
I need to get to Ikea to purchase pieces for my studio but everytime I’ve planned to go the weather hasn’t cooperated.
Is all of that the result of Mercury being retrograde? I don’t know but it’s been incredibly frustrating for a gal who knows what she wants and wants it when she wants it.
I decided to wait it out and just chill, trouble is I can’t chill, I need to be doing something, making something, creating something. So I decided to work on some DIY projects – I made a couple of garden globes which turned out lovely but now I have no garden to put them in and it’s still too cold.
On a brighter note I have a new big screen TV and have finally been able to get caught up with Game of Thrones. I’m tickled pink that the girls have taken over in Season 6. Now I can’t wait for Season 7. I was invited to attend the Collingwood Cinema Club’s movie presentations this past weekend and got to see a couple of tear jerkers – Manchester by the Sea and Horse Window, Moonlight was playing the next day but I was too exhausted from the prior day. I had guests for dinner and we headed to an after party with Liberty Silver and some of her friends, she was in town performing.
Sunday I decided to spend the day resting and watching TV, the Real Housewives of Atlanta Reunion was on as was the premiere of The Handmaid’s Tale. The RHOA reunion was brutal, the women slung insult after insult at each other. It was hurting my head so I pulled out a canvas and paint, I needed a diversion. Then the Handmaid’s Tale, if you think Game of Thrones as being barbaric and cruel, well at least the killing is swift. The Handmaid’s Tale takes place in a totalitarian theocracy with the theme being the subjugation of women. It was torturous for me to watch so I continued painting feverishly. The result was a picture of my brain exploding. You can clearly see that I started out softly but it quickly ended in chaos. Proof that you are a product of your environment.
Yesterday I finally got around to taking the car in for service and while I was in the City I decided to shop around. I ended up signing up for a jewelry making class. Do I really need yet another hobby? I have no time for the ones I have now but, but ……….the pieces were shiny and sparkling, unlike the current state of my chaotic and hectic life.
Last night I had an exchange with one of my cousins who just happens to be an Angel Card Reader. She picked these cards for me. Learn new things and teach was the first card.
The second card suggested I needed Focused Intention. Hhmm, I reflected on that for a while and questioned whether I could ever stay focused. Is it because I’m passionate and I want to do everything; experience life while I still can? After all I’ve spent most of my life taking care of other people and now I finally have time for me. Or am I looking for distractions to keep my mind off the fact that the people I love most in the world are 9,000 miles away and I don’t want to think about all that I’m missing?
More from my angel reading
I may never know the answer but in the meantime, I’m busy living life moment by moment, day by day and it’s racing by far too quickly. Today I’m feeling girly, so I’m off to clear out and paint my walk in closet. I even found a small chandelier for it – now that’s GIRLY and so unlike me. Stay tuned for the next installment, oh maybe I should finish that book I’ve been working on for the past 20 years.
In the meantime, Keep Creating!